Time is such a precious word, it can be good and bad depending on the situation. I have had days where I think that time couldn't inch by any slower. I go about my business and feel as if hours have gone by but no it's only been minutes. Then there are the days where I need more time. I feel as if only minutes have flown by but hours have and I rush to cram everything that I can into my day. I often wish that the day was 32 hours instead of 24 and that our bodies would have already evolved into thinking that was normal. Imagine what you could get done in those extra 8 hours. My work day would stay as is and then I would actually have the time to get everything I needed to get done....DONE. I average about 2 hours of at home time where I am not sleeping. In those two hours I desperately try and get everything done...the laundry, the cooking, the cleaning, and anything else that may jump out at me. My days are starting to blur together and I don't like the feeling of have loose ends everywhere. I still have that last load of laundry in the dryer that I should get out and fold before the wrinkles set in but I am too tired to drag my hiney off the couch to get it. I haven't blogged in awhile and I haven't finished a book that I have been trying to get through for the last 2 months....it's a good book I just can't seem to fit it in. I take it places with me but I end up holding it and gazing down with sorrow as I realize that I have to set it down to get just one more thing done. I have a pretty good schedule and there's no way that I would make it if I didn't. I have done much more than this at one time before but I have been spoiled this summer and need to get my mind and my body wrapped around my hectic life. I remember when Donte was deployed, I did everything, from finances, to taking care of the kids, the house, the dogs, the cars, making sure that the boys made their practices, their games, their school functions and their play dates, I was the gardener, the house keeper, the birthday party thrower and the doctor, I worked a full time job with sponge bob square ass and did it damn well if I do say so myself and to tell you the truth I know there was more that I did but it's all a blur now.....I am starting to feel as if I am juggling 50000000 balls at once......I also know that I am just venting and that it will all get easier soon. I am two weeks in to work, school, and football. That's usually my introductory period....I can't wait for it to all feel normal again....and at least this time in I have Donte here to take some of the load off when I need to chill out. **if only I would take the moments to chill**
On a good note I will be posting soon on BFF's and MFF's. Wondering what that's all about? Ask specifically for what you want and need and you shall get them. Don't worry about the people who have obvious issues, let them go and when you do the truly wonderful, funny, and trustworthy people will find you.....they sure did find me.
